It was the other night- she’s fine now, but I just thought she was really tired and just let her keep on sleeping, gently trying to wake her up every half an hour or so… She just stared at me and went back to sleep. I kept feeling like something was wrong, but I was so tired because I’ve just gotten back from Florida and I’d never seen her like that before, so I didn’t know what to do… Eventually I just grabbed her, pushed her into a sitting position, shoved a can of drink into her hand and sat behind her so that she couldn’t lie back down. She eventually told me that it had been like she was dreaming- that nothing I had said to her was real. She could barely remember anything. She was fine after a while, but it’s only just hit me now what a stupid fucking idiot I was… all because I didn’t know.
Oh they’re all just a bunch of dickheads who continually get on my nerves and they don’t like me and I don’t like them and they’re all selfish and up their own arses and wouldn’t lift a finger to help me even if I was on fire.